Half a decade point

20111125-134703.jpg5 years have gone by so quickly. Much had happened; much have changed. There were moments of joy, moments of frustrations and moments of tears; but they all add up and make wonderful memories that perhaps we could laugh about when we look back another half decade from now.

Happy Anniversary, Bibs! ;)

Our very last anniversary before we take the leap of faith; into a new phase of life together! Hahaha. May we continue to have patience and love for one another. Accepting each other regardless of shape, size, color, weight, or sanity! lolx!

Lurve ya lots! *MUAKS*

.

.

.

.

To all OCR readers (silent & the non-silent ones :P ), I’m introducing…

Our Wedding Project

:)

The scale didn’t tip!

Woke up yesterday with a nasty stomachache.  I thought it was probably just some usual morning gas or ingestion problem with the late dinner I had the night before.  Little did I know, the whole stomach woes started and did not stop for the rests of the day.  Told my mum she poisoned my food, and all she said was, “Don’t complain, I’m helping you lose weight! You should be paying me back for every kg you lose“… Well, I would have bought that if it was all that intentional.  Problem was, she SMS-ed back and ask me to figure out what could have caused it.  She needs to know how to replicate the concoction! >.<

Nevermind about that.  Doing 7 rounds of toilet runs, I was pretty much drained by the end of the day.  True enough, I was badly dehydrated by noon and came down with a temperature, flu and itchy throat.  Could barely shove lunch down my throat as the other end was threatening to flush again.  I know..too much details.  Anyhow, I’m glad I feel OK this morning; at least for the last 90 minutes I’m still doing fine ;)   What’s disappointing…is that the scale has not shown a single bit of weight reduction!!! How is that even possible??!!  My tummy and bum went through a marathon of trauma for the whole day!! *sobs*  Bibs said, “That’s because you are not full of sh*t

Old teacher-lookalike-glasses

For my eyes, I haven’t quite followed the instructions of applying the eye drops 4 times a day.  It’s not all that easy.  The eye lubricant is “thicker” in consistency and every time after I apply it, my eyes would feel somewhat gelled.  Which means they naturally will have to be shut for a while; hence the term “soak”.  What makes this whole process harder, is the fact that any form of light that penetrates through my eyes while the lubricant is still welling in the sockets, will basically blind you.  Eek!! So, it’s no fun…really.  But still..I’ll try to remember to put that on anyhow.. ;)

Thankful for my new pair of glasses.  Having to stay away from my lenses for at least a month or more, I really don’t wanna walk around looking like a teacher in my old glasses :P But I think the new one makes me look very unfriendly..it’s just so loud.  LOLx.  Perhaps it’s useful at work to shield myself from the gangsterism act! :P

New glasses!! And transition lens rawkss!!

Alrightey peeps.  Having a fun long weekend! ;) I have a lot to accomplished… *huff puff*

Health comes first

I know the subject line is kinda stating the obvious for all of us.  We know how often we hear that from people around us; especially for those who are typical workaholic ;) You know who you are…you perfectionists out there!

I noticed I’m surrounded by many who are currently in need of medical attention – 1) My aunt who are diagnosed with kidney failure and about to undergo dialysis after the arteries are prep for the treatment to start  2) Another aunt who just had a lump of blood clot drained from the thyroid region on the neck (which seems to be a common problem in our family..cos I have the same too) and she’s also scheduled for an eye operation for her glaucoma which has shown signs of deterioration 3) Cousin who is diagnosed with severe depression but with recent medical aids, he seems to be improving or rather have his condition somewhat under control (PTL, that he also committed his life to Jesus during the recovery!)  4) Shiny who has recovering very well after the coronary by-pass and staying very focus to be back in action again soon  5) A BIC who was diagnosed with dengue fever and now recovering at home  6) A friend’s father who had a stroke couple weeks back and the family is now struggling to adjust to the changes and the additional care that he needs  7) A dear sister who has been struggling with back pain for quite a while now and recently has been diagnosed with scoliosi  … And the list continues to grow.

At this time, it’s hard for me to dismiss the importance of health.  Most, if not all, of the people I have listed above are very healthy and successful people in their areas of profession.  They all lead a good life, happy in most cases (perhaps).  And it’s heart breaking to see them fall sick and suddenly life comes to a halt; and they are challenged with decisions to make, or choices to weigh.  It reminds me to really slow down and reprioritize on life goals/needs. Sometimes we strive for perfection in the wrong things and simply waste too much of our energy and time on them.  If you really look at how you live your lives, or how you set your goals, I won’t be surprise if most of us are guilty in realizing just how lopsided our focuses are.  So, I hope we will start to pay a bit more attention to ourselves.  Yes, Y-O-U.  This is especially important if you have someone around you whom you know will need you to be well and strong; you can’t be caring for anyone if you go down first.  And I’m especially awaken by the fact that once your health is compromised, everything else can suddenly lose its meaning; simply means you may strive for a career succession or you could be trying very hard to provide for your family, or you could even be working hard on improving your lifestyle.  All these has to happen in moderation, because if any of your “life support system” breaks down….everything, can come to a complete standstill.  And most of the time, these can happen when you least expects it.  So, let’s not even let ourselves get there..

Anyways, I just want you folks out there to really take some time to love yourself; today and everyday :) You just need to do that first before you can try to love anyone else around you.

I for one, have to get my eyes “fixed”.  Found out that my corneal scarring had caused my sudden photophobia condition. Thank God, the condition is not too bad and I should be able to let my corneal heal in a few weeks if I diligently use the eyes lubricant ;) And, of cos, stay away from the contact lens.  So, I have my “task”.  Let me know if you have identified one for yourself ;)

Stay healthy and well pipol.  Praying for strength, good health and happiness for all.  May God’s blessings and grace be upon you, and your loved ones.

It’s all good

It’s finally home sweet home for Shiny, and a lot of comfort for many who have been so concerned for the past few days.  Funny as it sounds, now that we look back, the last 5 days just felt so surreal.  So much of roller coaster ride.  o much of uncertainty. So must of testing over perseverance and faith.  We still believe everything happens for a reason.

With Shiny being “out of service” for a while, I cannot deny the fear and anxiety that I am going through.  It doesn’t help when I start to realize the many types of people that I have to work with; the genuine, the devious, the manipulative, the opportunist, the generous, the kind, the couldn’t-give-a-damn, etc…. the list goes on.  My eyes are suddenly opened even wider since the absence of my backbone.

I just have this strange feeling that the days to come will be very challenging and I will be tested of my Christ likeness.  How do I deal with integrity and ethics?  How do I say no to people who try to manipulate me for their own advantage?  How do I even know who to trust?  Gosh, is this what corporate ladder is all about?

*sigh*

I know that I made a point from the moment we knew Shiny was certified as “unfit” for work, that I will do all that I can to ensure that nothing changes.  I will continue to do my part and make sure the organization functions at its best.  Nothing will change with or without him cos that’s just how it should be.  He’s not going to be here forever to shield and shelter us!  B-U-T….it’s just been 4 days this week and all hell is breaking loose…. I can feel myself starting to lose control over situations and have people climb all over me; taking full advantage that now they can start to pounce on me because no one is around to bail me out.  Doesn’t help when the other one only cares about one thing – seize the opportunity.

*wails*

I’m stuck.  I’m stressed.  I’m worried.  I’m very unhappy.

Argh.  Kay, I’ll figure this out.  I will.  God have mercy.

 

 

 

 

Beep..beep..beep..

Third day into the whole hospital ordeal, things are unfolding positively. Thankful for the surgeons who recognizes the urgency of the situation and proposed for immediate surgery yesterday. Albeit the long and tiring day, everyone round the globe was relieved with the news that the heart by-pass went well. Being a fighter in nature, Shiny progressed as planned since he was back in the ICU.

Tubes, monitors, pumps… They surround his bed as he lay sedated on his bed. The doctor yelled his name so loudly that I swear even my soul jumped! :P But Shiny responded with the wriggles of his toes and fingers. Funny when you watch it, but it is really a good sign of comfort knowing he is ok.

Last night itself, he has been off the morphine and ventilator tube. Has been breathing on his own since. I’m really proud of him for pushing this far despite the lack of preparation for what was to unfold after the supposed “gastritis” on Saturday early morning..

Each time he progresses, a tube gets to come out. “Yay!! Bonus of the hour!!” Now, we just have to patiently wait for the next milestone..and then the next…and then the next….

For now.. It’ll just be the beepings that keep us accompany…